I want to lose 25% of myself

To myself in 6 months,

I promise to work hard. I promise to put good stuff into you. I promise that the creaking and pain will slowly go away and I promise that we can do this. It will hurt, it will suck and it will be hard but dammit, it will be worth it. When you look down and see that beautiful ink and are proud to show it off, that will be your reward. 

You can do this. You are strong and You can fight through the pain.

Love Me.



Today is a hard day. It is the day that I finally get off my ass and commit to lose it. I do not have any more excuses and reason why I cannot do it. All I have is my own fear, my own insecurities and my own self destruction keeping it from happening. I may feel beautiful some times right now but I need to imagine and hold on to how happy I will be when I can run a mile in 9 minutes and when I can fit into clothing from all the expensive brands I love. I need to remind myself of how beautiful the pawn belt tattoo will look across my stomach and hips and how utterly amazing the marigolds, peonies and other flowers will look scattered around my body.

Starting tonight I will be going to my local recreation center and spending enough time to totally kick my ass on the cardio machines. It may start out as 5 minutes but dammit, tomorrow I will make it to 6 and then Wednesday I will make it to 7.

I know I will have days where everything seems easy and that I can keep this up forever but I also know I will have days where the thought of watching what I eat will suck and the thought of working out one more time will make me cringe but I promise myself that I will shake those bad days off and will climb back on the machine the next day. If I eat something horrible for me I will not give up hope and take another swan dive off the healthy wagon. I will just admit that I am human and will do better the next day. I will not deprive myself so much that this is yet another failed attempt and rapid weight loss.

I only have to push it until it is a habit. I can do this one day at a time. I can lose 2-3# a week for the first 8 then 1-2# a week for the rest of the week.

It really is UnReal - Unreal Candy Review

So as many of you know, I participate in BzzAgent campaigns from time to time and the one I am in now is for a new candy called Unreal. It is a wonderful new product makes extra care to not have any of those nasty chemicals and no hydrogenated oils and no corn syrups. The candy is also gluten free for those of you with allergies/Celiac.

The only downside is if you are allergic to nuts, most, if not all, come with  "Shared equipment" or "contains tree/peanuts." so watch out for that!

That being said those in my house and my family LOVE the candy. They say it is really yummy and does not taste "earthy" or "hippy." I love the funky names (Un 54 is my favorite) and the fact the company is making just a small number of really good items instead of a lot of just ok candies.

Review of Covergirl+Olay make-up

After receiving my (free) sample from BzzAgent I worked this wonderful make up into my daily routine. The first thing I noticed was its sweet smell and super silky texture. The second thing was the generous pump size each "squirt" gave me made it easy to cover my whole face in one pump which not only keeps things cleaner but the bottle being sealed keeps your make-up usable for much longer.
Over the past few weeks I have noticed a change in not only how moisturized my skin is but have seen some acne scars fading as well as some of the crepe"y' texture on my eyelids becoming smoother.

The pressed powder is what gives this whole line a 4 star instead of 5. It is a little too light for me since I would like to be able to use it in lieu of the liquid on  "good skin" days and it just did not allow for build-able coverage. Overall, it is great as a setting power but I would not use it as a touch-up powder due to a bit of cakey-ness that the mix of shine and the powder create.

Overall I really liked the liquid make up and it will get a place in my daily routine but the powder is  not a must have for me.